I am so lost. so lost.

You used to be there for me to talk to.

But now, you’re no longer there.

I promised myself to never look for you ever again.

but it seems impossible.

It could be so easy to type a message, but its so difficult to click on the button, send.

Where are you? You seemed so far.

So far that i’ll never be able to reach.

I hear no updates from you.

how are you doing? how are things going for you? what have you been doing of late? are you happy, upset or angry?

So much questions for you.

Wanted so many advice from you.

I hope you’re right beside me now. remembering how we strolled along the beach.

Everything seems like a dream.

A dream i never wish to wake up from.

a random update. (:

woah schools sucha BLAST! I am begining to feel stress and pimples are popping out. I really cherish my weekends holiday. It only when i get to sleep more. I’ve been so busy with school. I miss my childhood terribly. But i am not giving up. BUCK UP!

Anyways, last saturday, i went out with Jingyun to stock up our CNY clothes. HEH HEH. Its great to catch up with her. We went to Suntech first then, Orchard Ion. We cabbed over and took a bus back. Its like, ‘Put your hair down day.’ So great!

Mine.

Jingyun's.

-.-

You just have to agree that Jingyun is sucha bad photographer luhhs! LOOK! (3rd picture). hmmm. We went to Newyork (I am not sure if its double Newyork or single) for dinner. Yum Yum. Frankly speaking, I don’t really like the food though.

I’ve been shopping online everyday. I feel so sinful. I spent so much. But its my own savings okays! Anyways, I am feeling so happy because, the viewers of my blog hadn’t drop abit. Thank you so much. It feels so heartwarming to see the stats remained unchanged though i haven’t been blogging. Also, I’ll be away over the weekends to attend my cousin’s wedding. Will do a UBER LONG post. (:

take me to the merry-go-round.

School Reopened! Well. I have another 28minutes to blog. Its 5:02 now. I slept at 7pm last night and woke up earlier than expected today. Instead of waking up at 5:30am, I woke up at 4am. And, school starts at 8 today. Hmmm. I am kind of busy of late. Can’t believe that I’ll be sixteen this year. I am actually eating a banana while typing these out. Hahas. Saw some good food on the table just now. But its placed on the table without anything covering it or whatsoever. So, I am sticking to my bananna diet. Hahas. Don’t misunderstood. Some pills to be taken so, I’ll be preparing some sandwiches for myself later. alright. shall blog another time. bye!

Happy New Years!

A fresh new start, another chance, a new beginning, a new year. Happy New Years to all. (:

New year, new resolutions.

1. I hope I’ll put my main focus on my studies. Its a crucial year for me. Other than the N and O levels examinations, I’ll be having tons of dance practices next year. I don’t wish to be stressed out either.
2. To err is human, forgive is divine. I hope I can learn to be more tolerant and forgiving. Its so important to me.
3. Save more, Spend less.
4. To submit all my assignments on time.
5. To work harder. To become a better person in terms of character building.
6. Be optimistic at all time.

I believe these five resolutions are easily attainable if I put in effort to make them work out. So hopefully everything goes well.

I watched Avatar today! Its such a great movie. Rate it 4stars. Avatar is so much better than New Moon. Oh Did i mention? New Moon is such a disappointment. No pictures for this post. I went out with my grandmother this morning. I am dead beat now. Have a good rest all and we’ll start having workloads on monday. POOFs! Goodnights!.

Never too far away.

hey people! I’m back. I didn’t go anywhere this year for the holidays. I’ve been staying at home almost everyday. The malls were too crowded. I haven’t been blogging because i have the intention of closing this blog. But after several thoughts, I am not gonna do it. I feel so good after blogging everytime. So why should i do it? Hahas! I got so into ‘Halo’ by Beyonce lately. Just can’t stop going, ‘Can see your halo..halo..’ Hahahas! Its the last week of holidays already. Can’t believe that its 2010 in a few days time. At the same time, I can’t wait for 2010 to arrive soon. 2009 have been relatively bad year for me. Probably I have been exposed to more people and things around me? Frankly speaking, I don’t like it. But isn’t this what life is about? shrieks! well, here are some overdue photos. posting as much as i could. Anyways, I have replied to all comments. Have a good day people. (:

They say I gained weight. heehs.

making my hair. hehs.

I asked Jingyun to take a photo of me. And I am so disappointed in her photography skills. hmmm.

gees. decent shot.

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 3.

Take 4. Since theres nobody, I especially ran up and down for these few shots. Its dumb but definitely fun.

Is this what you people call pig face?

We had fun? I guess so.

I like this photo. Christmas'09.

what a friday.

Dumb dumb dee dumb. I’m all alone at home now. Came online to check on my emails. grrr. Idiotic. Why am i so prone to illnesses during the holidays. my eyes swelled again. So gonna fall sick soon. I had the most terrible headache i ever had. It feels like someone hitting you at the back of your head with a baseball bat. And its like burning hot. How annoying. I ate, I drank, I slept. Why are all these happening? It rained again this afternoon. It will be too couldy and there will be no stars tonight. Again. ):

 

Departure.

went to changi airport thrice yesterday. Sent off Ms Wang, Yuting and Ms Guo.

Ms wang went back to visit her hometown. She should have reached home by now. Just before Ms Wang left, She treated Wanling and I a sumptous meal. Yum Yum. We talked alot during that few hours before her flight. She is chatty but funny. hahas.

Yuting went to Japan. Its a school trip. Hope that she’ll be back safely and so are the rest of my school mates. Its great to see her so happy last night. Yuting’s whole family were there to send her off. What a heartwarming scene. (:

Ms Guo retired and went back to hometown to get married. She is not coming back anymore. Well, its a pleasant news but I hate to see her leave. She taught me Chinese when I was back in Secondary1. The kindda bond I had with her is priceless. I went to her when I had problems. She helped me moved on when I was in my darkest. Thank you teacher for everything. (:

I am so blessed to have so many sincere and genuine people to be placed in my life. Thank you lord.

Boom Boom.

wide grin.

Met up with Christina yesterday with her son. It feels really good. And in some ways, I think she is really beautiful. Beauty comes from within. Thats something which i am really envy of. The ugliest person would be one with a wicked heart. I am trying hard to change myself into a better person probably because i believe in karma? hahas.

Pose 2.

Pose 1.

Pose 3.

Open house today is a success. Performed twice and i am all worn out now. All Dancers did well today and i am so proud of them. Good Work girls. Continue to strive hard. (: I can’t wait for SYF2011, though practices makes me feel like death. But i guess thats what i really enjoy, being part of Chinese Dance Club. Everyone tries so hard to attain the glory, as a group. That kind of feeling would be happiness i guess.Thinking back, i am most happy during those practices.

Yixin.

Cherrie.

I’ve always wanted to grow older, hoping that time would pass faster. But i realized, once you’re out there, working, you have to stay committed to whatever you’re doing. Staying in the office for long hours, meeting up clients, preparing presentations, etc? You don’t have time to spend with your love ones or even friends. The cycle goes on and on. Its boring ain’t it?

What upsets me most was that you don’t even remember. I understand that you were busy. But I am just being demanding as always.

peep here!

I did the silliest thing  one can ever do. I went out with eyeshadow appilied only on one eye. I totally forgot about it. Was testing out with the colors so that on saturday, nothing goes wrong. But am too lazy to apply on both eyes. So, i applied only on one eye. I wanna check my mailbox if my parcel had arrived. I went down and BOOMS. hehehs. Its kinda nice using that word. I guess thats why that little girl was staring at me when we were taking the same lift. One eye colored and one eye naked. hahas. If you have noticed, i haven’t been updating much lately. I have dance rehearsals for the whole of this week, almost everday. Did i mention?

Junyuan Secondary will be having our very first open house on this coming Saturday, 21Nov’09, starts at 0930.

I’ll be performing. hehs. I need lots of rest. Am so tired. Anyways, i had milo and biscuit for dinner. What about you?

its not your fault. its me again.

oh my. am i too sensitive? did i choose the wrong time again? did i do anything wrong this time? i guess, you just click on the red-color ‘X’ box on the top right hand corner right away after you read what i typed. or are you too busy to reply. its always so difficult for myself to start a whole new conversation all the time. you might be thinking, ‘ oh well, then don’t start.’ i didn’t want to worsen the friendship between us. i wanted to restore it or rather, should i just ignore? i want another outing. i wanna leave a good impression, rather than what i left now, a love drunk probably? i wanna show you who i really am. i wanna be myself. i wanna apologise for my wrong beings. i wanna be friends. its just that simple.

Dear Lord, please lead the way for me.